thank you for your concern and care.
thank you for your phonecalls, cupcakes, 'han-gwa,' CDs, and, most importantly, for your prayers for me.
all these mean a lot to me. thank you, thank you.
I'm doing OK. Or, I'm trying hard to bring a degree of normalcy to my life. I cook, clean, talk with friends, and even write a little bit. I eat, I laugh. Yes. I do all those. Although I am thus leading a normal life, fulfilling my daily duties as a mom-wife-homemaker, and although I'm 'doing' fine, it is still very hard to actually 'feel fine'----- because I feel a terrifying sense of loss, because my heart is bleeding deep inside. And because of my crying spellsl---i cry uncontrollably for an hour or so, a few times a day. But, no worries. I am just mourning in my own way, and it will pass, like everything else in life.
I just wanted to let you know that I'm leaving for Joshua this morning.
will update my blog when I get back.
happy new year to you all.
sj
ps> hey, friends, i reread what I had written last night (at 4 am).
boy, don't I sound like a drunkard after a few bottles of wine?! I sound incomprehensible!!
for those of you who might be concerned that I'm drinking, no, I don't drink. I just lack sleep. I haven't slept well for a few days. And I'm going to sleep A LOT in Joshua.
remembering you in my prayer,
shinjyu